well well, im not gonna be a dad, so with that worry out of the picture, i gotta watch out though, i dont want that uncertainty ever again until i want to be a dad.
anyways i decided a few things, just said to myself you know what fuck this shit, for example, smoking weed, i've realized all the reasons why to quit, i have, i've written them down on this fuckin lj, but i never did quit, i remember when i smoked the first time, i said to myself, this isn't gonna be for ever, i'm only gonna do it a few times, then after a couple of months still doing it, i said, "when i turn 18 im gonna quit"
MOTHAFUCKA IM 21 YEARS OLD NOW!!
im starting to really think that a PSYCHOLOGICAL addiction is worse than a PHYSICAL addiction.
the brain is the most powerful organ, when i knew weed was psychologically addictive i brushed it off, believing bullshit online sites, you never know what is what until you do your own research, fuck all them sites that say nicotine addiction is worse than THC addiction,
i think its almost the same, if not THC is worse, even though i do not wake up to a joint, like many nicotine addicts wake up to a cigarette, i can say that if i don't smoke in 2 weeks i will think a month passed since i didn't smoke, then i get these nostalgic thoughts of how great it feels to be stoned, how great music sounds when i'm stoned, how fucking BRUTAL is watching Planet Earth on blue-ray on the 42 Inch LCD screen at 1am, how amazing is making love to my fiancee high, the feeling that you understand every little thing about anything, and the thought that you are figuring out shit when really you are making dumb ass questions that you can't talk to anyone about because you will forget that tought as quick as you forget all the goals you just set yourself.
THATS WHATS HAPPENING TO ME... January 10. 2009 I officially quit smoking.
beer is for special occasions, cigarettes will accompany a beer if nessesary.
any other substance are out of the picture.
and i'm gonna start getting fit, and in peak performance, fuck that beer belly. imma get swoll (not like a fuckin meathead but like a fit motherfucka)